At Clarke Quay Central! I love seeing Christmas decorations everywhere
Another week has passed. I tried to start the week by logging down what happened each day, but I didn’t manage to write anything after Tuesday, so this would be a slightly lopsided account of the week that was! Top highlights from last week:
Started a new blog (celenadoesux.wordpress.com)! It’s a place where I’ll write about design, UI/UX, and other career/work-related things. I think it’s more organised to keep it separate from this blog. Please follow if it sounds like the kind of thing you’d be into! My second post is a recap of the Design Bootcamp Asia event that I attended last Thursday.
Met Lauren Tsai from Terrace House AS! ❤ She’s so nice and pretty IRL
Started playing Pocket Animal Crossing (Add me: 6353 1735 183)
So I turned 24 last week! I don’t know what to do with that info, and I’m sure the same goes with you. I just wanted to quickly share some events that happened last week:
The Day Before
November 13 was a Monday, so I had work. By 11AM though, some of my officemates and I left the office because we signed up to volunteer for a soup kitchen.
It was a pretty fulfilling experience. I know it was just a couple of hours (and all I did was chop vegetables for 4 hours) and they do that sort of thing in almost a daily basis, but it’s good to know that we helped relieve some of the other volunteers of their work for half the day.
I’m on sick leave today (it’s Tuesday). My head, nape, and left shoulder are experiencing some numb, pulsing pain, which, combined with my feeling down and burnt out, just doesn’t make me fit for work today (in my own judgment, at least).
On a completely unrelated note, I’m turning 24 exactly a week from now. 24! I don’t know what to think about that, to be honest. On the surface, I would gather that I’m kinda mature enough to be 24. Sure, I still eat junk most of the time, and sure, I spend most of my free time playing mobile games, but I do have a job that pays well and challenges me (a little too much, sometimes), I have sufficient emergency savings (and I am investing on our own house), I do yoga and go to the gym semi-regularly, and I’m on a great & stable relationship… I’m not doing so bad for someone who is turning 24.
This week was slightly better than last week. I went to yoga (although I was almost 30 minutes late), went to the gym, finished another book, and was more productive (compared to last week at least). Side note to myself: I really should stop equating my happiness to my productivity.
Read: Persepolis by Marjane Satrapi
Watch: V for Vendetta
Listen: Stars’ new album called There is No Love in Fluorescent Light
Play: Arena of Valor
This weekend was happily lazy & uneventful, though! Friday night and almost the entire Saturday was spent playing a game called Arena of Valor. We are absolutely obsessed! I did the laundry too as well & we watched V for Vendetta. Today I worked on a DailyUI entry, had kwek kwek for breakfast (yes, don’t judge), had chicken rice for lunch, played some more, and helped cook dinner.
This week was incredibly tough for reasons even I can’t comprehend. I didn’t feel like doing anything except stay in bed. I was super late (like 1 hr+) for work everyday, I took one day off as sick leave, I skipped yoga & gym, and overall I just felt unmotivated and dull. There were a few highlights though:
Lists are awesome. I can make a list of why lists are great. Item no.1: it’s a good way to organise one’s thoughts! And I have a lot of that from this week. I attended 3 workshops/talks, saw web things that I really like, and had some unique, er, experiences. Let’s jump in.
Let’s see, it’s about 5 months and 5 days since my last post. It felt much longer than that. Last night I received a letter from past me c/o futureme.org (check this site out, it’s cool!) It turns out, September 22 had a track record of being a tough day for me. It’s been that way since 2013, apparently. So since then I’ve been emailing letters to myself that will arrive a year later. This year, it isn’t so bad. Actually, it’s loads better. I never would’ve imagined that I’d be where I am right now. Even though a voice inside my head tells me that it could only go downhill from here, I still try to be optimistic about the future.
This is why I’m forcing myself to write a blog post lol. Just in case (or when) the going gets tough, I can look back to these times of joy and contentment and know that life can be so ~*beautiful*~.
Perhaps I should not begin this with how time flies so fast, etc. But it really does. Just moments ago it was the new year and I was contemplating on what my goals should be and now it’s April and I have listed zero goals all in all. However, this is not the point of my post. I have things I want to recap:
23 is the new 14
I know I previously mentioned that I felt ancient after turning 23. This is not the case anymore. There’s this article that says we usually reach peak happiness at ages 23 and 69. Everything else is downhill from there. And I get it.
23, not 14, is the perfect age. Not too young to be full of naive idealism, and not too old to get pressured into getting shit together. This probably doesn’t make any sense to you. I guess I could put it another way: you know how when you’re young, you have all the energy & time in the world but no money & freedom, and when you’re old you have all the money & freedom, but no energy & time. Well, 23 is the age when you have everything: money, freedom, energy, time – the world is freakin’ yours. At 23 you can be selfish, sad, enthusiastic, reckless, and whatever else you might think of! It’s really truly magical.
Recently, I find myself thinking: you are worth more than your productivity. It’s like a little prayer for my sanity lol. I’ve observed that I always base my happiness on whatever work-related task I have accomplished on a given day. Not only is it superficial, it can also be toxic at times. I’m trying to get rid of this mindset. More importantly, I’m trying to get rid of the self-imposed pressure to be happy all the goddamn time.
There’s another article that I read that says different people have different default levels of happiness and sadness, which is mostly influenced by things we cannot control, like genetics. Meaning, a generally sad person could win the lottery, be happy for a while, then go back to being sad again. A cheerful person could experience a death of a loved one, get sad for a while, then back to being happy again. No matter how hard we try, we can only control up to a certain percentage of how we feel. It’s comforting to not feel lousy about feeling lousy, you know?
Now I’ve reached my quota of words to write. I initially wanted to write about HBO’s Girls’ ending (hence the title), ’cause it’s really the end of an era, but everybody seems to be writing about it, so. I plan to blog more, though. It helps me to put things in perspective. Future posts that I want to list so I don’t forget:
my first few months in Singapore + my new job
our new place (I just moved in with my boyfriend! Aaaannd my mom lol)
some design-related stuff, hopefully (takeaways on books like Lean UX, and retrospect on first quarter projects)
I also wanna try & do a one-week finance and/or food and/or fitness diary of some sort cause I’m just curious about these things. That is all!
No – I’ve not moved to a new domain (does this count as clickbait?) This blog has seen me as an obsessed college student blogging about her lessons, grow up to become an online-shopping addict pitting two beauty websites against each other. I am here for the foreseeable future. What I meant was: I have moved to Singapore!
It feels only yesterday when I wrote my last post, two weeks after I had quit my job. But more than two months have passed! And boy was it busy. But it was all worth it because I got a new job. Tomorrow is my first day back, so today is my last day of funemployment.
My time off has not been put to waste, though. Here’s just a couple of things I’ve been up to (in no particular order):
published my portfolio at celenajasmin.com. It’s still not what I imagined, but it looks decent enough to share
freelanced for two different projects which I hope I can share soon
marathoned Star Wars for the first time! (Then Carrie Fisher passes away a few weeks after aforementioned marathon. RIP.)
visited my friend in Penang and her lovely office at Piktochart + toured the lovely Georgetown
started eating vegetables (and less McDonald’s!) I’m serious. If you know me personally, you’d know how big of a change this is. It’s a real turning point. I’m not getting any younger and I have to start taking care of myself (now to sleeping early…)
Speaking of not getting any younger, I also turned 23 last November! I feel so ancient, but I at least feel that I’m also making better choices now instead of self-sabotaging and clinging to what’s left of my teen angst (I mean, as I’m writing this, I am also doing the laundry. So, beat that, 14 y/o self.)
visited museums and art exhibits and hung out at countless cafés (what’s new)
…and did I mention that I got myself a new job! (I know I did, lol) I never thought I’d get to this stage. I always thought that when people say that it has been a long and challenging journey, they were overreacting, but it’s really the perfect way to describe it. Now I can finally be closer to the person that I love, after two years of being apart. *happy tears*